keeping both grief and gratitude

“I could be sitting on the sidelines, in blissful lack of information of the brokenness that surrounds me, having fun with the total-ness of a candy and sheltered existence. missing out on the great thing about breaking off pieces of my heart and my existence to make an additional total.” – Jamie from @fosterthefamilyblog

I look at this photograph. I think of the last 9 months of loving this little man. I suppose of the roller coaster of emotions we’ve experienced. I think of the brutal and the captivating. I believe of how our entire household has changed as a result of loving this little guy. I feel of how we be gotten to look God exhibit up in profound and strong approaches on our behalf. And my coronary heart swells with gratitude.

We didn’t register for foster care because we are mighty or courageous, but as a result of we have been called. as a result of as soon as we knew the need, we couldn’t live in our secure bubble of comfort, we needed to start out and say sure — even when it terrified us.

and that i examine this past 12 months and that i can say with a hundred% self belief: God has been so trustworthy.

within the many moments when it felt overwhelming and onerous, He become devoted.

in the times after we felt lonely and scared, He turned into devoted.

throughout the many unknowns, He was devoted.

I don’t recognize what God is asking you to. I don’t comprehend what you are strolling through. I don’t recognize what scary issue you could be dealing with that you simply be aware of you are supposed to say “yes” to.

however this i know: God is devoted. He has been, he is, and He should be devoted. relaxation in that, lean on that, and take the next step.

in this week’s episode of The Crystal Paine exhibit, Jesse and i sit down and discuss what this ultimate week has been like for us. We open up candidly about how the grief of announcing goodbye to Champ has profoundly impacted us. We share what has been helping us, how we’re processing this loss, what has been helping us, and how we’re keeping each grief and gratitude on the same time.

and because we didn’t desire the whole episode to be heavy, we also focus on our street travel to Kansas, chocolate collagen, a publication I’m studying to Kierstyn, a assignment Jesse lately entire, and a sweatshirt i’m loving.

in this Episode: 

[00:46] This week has in reality been heavy and we’ll discuss that, however first…

[03:33] We acquired to head to Kansas lately. Hear about the shuttle.

[08:43] We had an unexpected experience take place on the highway on the manner home from Kansas.

[13:07] Chocolate collagen is saving Jesse’s existence.

[14:33] Our new deck furniture has been saving my life.

[17:08] I’m studying Stuart Little to Kierstyn.

[17:40] So, let’s focus on grief and gratitude. We’re sharing the story at the back of Champ going domestic.

[20:40] Why I’m so grateful looking again over the ultimate week.

[23:35] Tuesday nighttime and Wednesday morning had been very complicated. i used to be hit with deep grief.

[26:14] Jesse became hit hardest the primary nighttime. Hear why.

[29:41] Why it’s critical to permit yourself to believe the grief.

[32:04] What has been most positive after I suppose the cloud of grief come over me.

[34:04] learning to acquire from others as an alternative of always being the giver.

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